Head vs. Heart
Basically, I’m having issues. My brain is currently ridiculously chaotic, so I’m going to put all this in bullets in an attempt to clean it up. Okay:
- If you’ve been reading any of my posts recently, you know that I’ve become involved with the Occupy Atlanta movement.
- I also happen to be a full-time student. I have a big exam tomorrow, a big exam next Thursday, as well as a paper due next Friday.
- I’ve pretty much always been an all-A student and I’ve got a scholarship to maintain. Basically, I can’t do poorly on any of the above tasks.
- My biggest issue that is driving me absolutely insane is that I can’t balance how much I want to contribute to Occupy Atlanta and how much I know I have to do for school (particularly studying).
- Right now, I’m sort of splitting my time between both, which means I’m not doing as well as I could with either.
- I don’t know everyone at the Occupation and they don’t all know me. I want to change that. I also want to be at all the action events. I want to be cleaning the park. I want to be involved with committees. I want to attend most/all of the workshops/teach-ins being given. I want to help with any area that needs aid.
- I also want to do well in school. I want to have all my Government reading done before each class. I want to feel prepared for each exam. I want to have sufficient time to write all my papers.
- Currently, I’m only attending OA’s General Assemblies each day and a few workshops. I’m only at the major action events. I’m behind on my Government reading. I do not feel prepared at all for my exam tomorrow.
- Don’t even get me started on television, showers, or meals. I don’t really have time for any of the three. (I’ve only eaten once today, which was 12 hours ago. I’m at least still attempting to shower regularly. And television is going to be cut out completely pretty soon.) Hell, I definitely haven’t been working out either (though some of the marches have stood as exercise—walking ~3 miles).
- And clearly, the internet and I need to break up soon as well. I definitely don’t need another time-sucker.
- I need there to be some sort of easy solution for all this because I feel like everything’s slipping through the cracks and my head is about to fall off from trying to think about it all.
- I feel so strongly about the OA movement and I want so much to spend all my time there.
- I also know that in order not to fuck up my life/financial situation, I need to dedicate all my time to school.
- I just…can’t. I don’t know how to balance any of this.
- My heart says “Occupy!” and my head says “Study!”
- …Why isn’t there an easy solution? Maybe Hermione can lend me her time-turner?
I highly doubt anyone read this whole thing, but if maybe anyone has any sort of advice for managing my time or anything at all, I’m willing to listen to anything.