Sweet like bear meat

So I went into work early today with my boyfriend up to his kitchen to dick around. There, I met the...

Sun, 16 Jun 2013 20:04:30 -0400

So I went into work early today with my boyfriend up to his kitchen to dick around. There, I met the head pastry chef who just so happens to have a position opening up in two weeks (!!!) and basically said I can have it (!!!) if I pitch it to the executive chef of the stadium and he approves (!!!).

I have no idea how that’ll go over with him, and he super terrifies me (as does this whole pitch idea), but this is a fucking amazing opportunity to do what I truly love for a living: baking and pastry. Onward through the fear and into the cakes!

Mini identity crisis? Check! Social anxiety at an all-time high? Major check!

Thu, 13 Jun 2013 13:15:35 -0400

I just need a place to talk about things for a minute.

Current sources of social anxiety:

Family dinner. So my boyfriend is part of a huge fostered/adopted/virtual family (total of 26 kids). They’re starting to do “family dinners” on a regular basis and while they consider me a part of the family now, I’m still struggling with my place in this group, causing extreme anxiety. I was shaking to tears after seeing some of them last week. Also, they’re REALLY cool, really attractive people and that is intimidating. All of them. Anyway, the first dinner is tonight. And I’m nervous! I don’t know where I belooooooonnnnng!
New job. Ron is kind of a big shot chef at the local MLB stadium and he wrangled me a job there as a cook! While it’s awesome that I’m finally gonna have more income, there are unfortunately many problems with this:

He’s worked there for a while and has some pretty cool buddies that, in my role as a girlfriend, I’d really like to get to know. They’re good people. However, now that I’ll be working there, those guys will be so far high up from me rank-wise that it would totally be inappropriate for me to be buddy-buddy with them. So this puts me in a weird position.
Further, I happen to find one of boyfriend’s said bosses/friends to be quite attractive, which makes this whole situation even stranger. His uniform makes him particularly attractive, so seeing him now solely in a work environment is odd!!!
Also, of course, my new job is as a cook. I have absolutely no kitchen experience and don’t even consider myself a person that can cook. So after walking through the kitchen yesterday, I am so completely intimidated. I’ve never really been so completely unprepared for anything in my life. I’ve always been at least moderately good at what I do, so this is terrifying.
Finally, there’s the social aspect of starting a new job. This might be the biggest thing. I’ll be expected to talk with and make “friends” with my coworkers and when I’m in a work setting, I prefer to focus on my job and do said tasks to the best of my ability. Additionally, the professional kitchen is a jovial and rough environment. I historically don’t do well in those kinds of places! I’m very awkward to begin with! Especially when I can’t tell if people are teasing me! So that’s also terrifying.

So those are the various things frightening me currently. Funny that these things are all way more important to me than the obstacle of maintaining a full-time job on top of an almost full-time school schedule. So woo! We’ll see how this goes!

Photo

Wed, 05 Jun 2013 11:57:42 -0400

Gonna die/cry/some combination of the two. I love you,...

Tue, 04 Jun 2013 17:09:04 -0400

Gonna die/cry/some combination of the two. I love you, Craigslist.

So the Sprinkles cupcake ATM is coming to Atlanta.

Thu, 30 May 2013 15:20:45 -0400

This can only end poorly.

I’ve come to talk with you again. I’ve made a huge...

Thu, 30 May 2013 08:29:37 -0400

I’ve come to talk with you again.

I’ve made a huge mistake.

Me too, Variety. Me too.

Mon, 27 May 2013 01:37:19 -0400

Me too, Variety. Me too.

So I’m in film school But on a walk through the grocery store last night I realized that if I...

Fri, 24 May 2013 13:00:37 -0400

So I’m in film school

But on a walk through the grocery store last night I realized that if I had the choice to do anything at all for the rest of my life, I would bake. Spending my days and nights and very early mornings making happiness in food form is my ideal.

But culinary school is expensive. Guess I’ll take my state-funded scholarship and continue to shove into the film/TV program!

I am not my rosy selfLeft my roses on my shelfTake the white...

Tue, 21 May 2013 23:08:31 -0400

I am not my rosy self
Left my roses on my shelf
Take the white ones; they’re my favorites
It’s the side effects that save us
Grace

Graceless | The National | Trouble Will Find Me, 2013

muppet-madison: Everything is going to be okay, you guys.

Tue, 21 May 2013 17:28:23 -0400

muppet-madison:

Everything is going to be okay, you guys.

lizdexia: THIS WAS EVERYTHING I’VE EVER NEEDED. I DIE

Sun, 19 May 2013 00:51:24 -0400

lizdexia:

THIS WAS EVERYTHING I’VE EVER NEEDED.

I DIE

All through spring semester I pondered how to accurately describe my media professor's attractiveness and I finally got it:

Sat, 18 May 2013 00:46:26 -0400

He’s the perfect mix between John Krasinski and Jon Hamm. Boom. (Actually, he’s even more Disney Princeish than Hammbone. Really.)

galentines: GREG!!!! OH MY GOD THIS FINALE YOU GUYS OH MY...

Fri, 17 May 2013 22:23:22 -0400

galentines:

GREG!!!! OH MY GOD THIS FINALE YOU GUYS OH MY GOD

Though the last line is way up there, this was probably my favorite part of the finale.

Seth Meyers Named Host of NBC’s ‘Late Night’ | Variety

Sun, 12 May 2013 14:03:54 -0400

Seth Meyers Named Host of NBC’s ‘Late Night’ | Variety:

WHAT

fuckyeahthenational: The National - Sea of Love Oh my god.

Wed, 08 May 2013 22:09:08 -0400

fuckyeahthenational:

The National - Sea of Love

Oh my god.

AHHH, I GOT TICKETS! I’M FINALLY SEEING THE NATIONAL!!

Wed, 08 May 2013 11:15:00 -0400

AHHH, I GOT TICKETS! I’M FINALLY SEEING THE NATIONAL!!

Tina Fey And Amy Poehler Fight Sacha Baron Cohen On ‘Anchorman...

Tue, 07 May 2013 21:31:20 -0400

Tina Fey And Amy Poehler Fight Sacha Baron Cohen On ‘Anchorman 2’ Set - May 7, 2013

I SHOULD HAVE SHOWED UP EARLIER

also

I HAVE LAIN IN THAT SAME GRASS
I’VE MADE OUT ON THAT GRASS
omg

Shook Paul Koechner's hand though

Tue, 07 May 2013 19:51:48 -0400

Oh man

Saw Paul Rudd and audibly yelped.

Tue, 07 May 2013 19:49:59 -0400

No Poehler yet.

apocalarious: @childerscp: Amy Poehler and Tina Fey in the...

Tue, 07 May 2013 00:14:16 -0400

apocalarious:

@childerscp: Amy Poehler and Tina Fey in the house! #anchorman2 #atlanta @olv @Peachyscoop

Ugh, this is freaking me out. I only gave a few shits about them filming in the park but now POEHLER?!?! Cannot handle this hero-induced anxiety